January 2011
Worry wort
The only words I can come up with to describe how I feel every time I am about to do something that I find important to me. Test, competitions, being picked up for prom.
Its nearly 2 in the morning and I can’t manage to fall asleep. Why? I have a tryout tomorrow for the PSU Equestrian Team. They said it would only last 15 minutes but the cut list wont get posted till 4 and of course I am...
“I would rather spend my life close to the birds than waste it wishing I had...”
– House
“Sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We...”
– Grey’s Anatomy
“I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when...”
– Greys Anatomy
“Pain makes us make bad decisions. Fear of pain is almost as big a motivator.”
– House
“Pain makes us make bad decisions. Fear of pain is almost as big a motivator.”
– House
To protect the heart
Is it wrong to push away love to protect the heart? To build up a wall around ones most fragile organ, the life giver the theoretical creator of all affection? It cannot protect itself. It loves wildly and unconditionally like a puppy to its owners each arrival back home. It should be leashed, chained like an animal because a loving heart is untameable.
Lost but never found
I feel lost today. Wondering in and out of my own thoughts. Unable to focus on one thing. The answers unreachable, only brushed lightly by the tips of my fingers stretched out as far as they can go till they stung with the effort.
“I believe that whatever dosn’t kill you simply makes you…stranger.”
– Heath Ledger aka The Joker
Christchurch, New Zealand
Today I decided I was ready to leave the country. Something about spending four years at Penn State just suddenly seemed boring to me. Maybe it was because the current lack of friends at school or my slight jealousy of some of the fun my other friends are having at college or plan on doing at college once they graduate. Or maybe I just feel like I need to breath some fresh new air, in some foreign...
December 2010
“Hey chuck did you make any new years resolutions?
Yea. I used to dread the...”
– Charlie Brown new years
“When real people fall down in life, they get right back up and keep walking.”
– Sex and the city
