“Paramore taught me there’s love out there, but also how to move on.
Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right.
Greenday taught me that government’s gonna fail someday.
Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love.
Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through.
Travis taught me to be generous.
30 Seconds to Mars taught me to speak whats on my mind.
Music taught me how to live. <3”—comment on a Paramore song on Youtube
“I am constantly reminding myself, like, no matter how amazing my relationship is, keep working on it. Keep working on it and keep finding another level. Things can always get better, even when it’s going great.”—
(someone all men should learn from. I mean he did major in biochemical engineering)
The only words I can come up with to describe how I feel every time I am about to do something that I find important to me. Test, competitions, being picked up for prom.
Its nearly 2 in the morning and I can’t manage to fall asleep. Why? I have a tryout tomorrow for the PSU Equestrian Team. They said it would only last 15 minutes but the cut list wont get posted till 4 and of course I am tryout out 3 hours before that. The first to try out. So I have spent the entire day brushing up on the proper jumping stance and how to change simple leads. Then I will spend the entire morning before my tryout rebrushing up and the entire 3 hours afterwards picking out all my mistakes in my mind while I wait for the cut list to be posted.
I’ve been told I am the master at worrying too much even though I am probably more prepared than anyone else and will end up doing just fine. But I will never believe that, because if I stop worrying then I won’t spend hours brushing up, studying, visualizing and making sure everything is perfect. Without that to occupy my time…what will I do?
“Sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrows rug until we can’t anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering. That waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake, beats the hell out of not trying.”—Grey’s Anatomy
“I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you’ve crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don’t know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.”—Greys Anatomy
Is it wrong to push away love to protect the heart? To build up a wall around ones most fragile organ, the life giver the theoretical creator of all affection? It cannot protect itself. It loves wildly and unconditionally like a puppy to its owners each arrival back home. It should be leashed, chained like an animal because a loving heart is untameable.
I feel lost today. Wondering in and out of my own thoughts. Unable to focus on one thing. The answers unreachable, only brushed lightly by the tips of my fingers stretched out as far as they can go till they stung with the effort.
Today I decided I was ready to leave the country. Something about spending four years at Penn State just suddenly seemed boring to me. Maybe it was because the current lack of friends at school or my slight jealousy of some of the fun my other friends are having at college or plan on doing at college once they graduate. Or maybe I just feel like I need to breath some fresh new air, in some foreign country with rolling hills and odd birds.
I mean regardless I always wanted to study abroad but I decided I didn’t want to wait till my junior year to go to Australia. So I am beginning my application to Lincoln University in Christchurch, New Zealand. I know it sounds like a strange place but I’m excited. Or at least I am just ready to be somewhere else rather than where I am now. I want some place with excitement and I hope this will give it to me.
“We’re all susceptible to it, the dread and anxiety of not knowing what’s coming. It’s pointless in the end, because all the worrying and the making of plans for things that could or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog or take a nap. Just whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here, just as you are.”—Meredith: Grey’s Anatomy
“…A fellow used to write to him and say: “I want to be a writer. Please read my stuff.” And Rilke says to this guy: “Don’t ask me about being a writer. lf when you wake up in the morning you can think of nothing but writing, you’re a writer.” I’m gonna say the same thing to you. If you wake up in the mornin’ and you can’t think of anything but singin’ first…then you’re supposed to be a singer. Girl.”—The Sister Act 2: Back In The Habit